I have always had trouble with the Bible. None of it really made sense to me. Genesis, for example and the story of Adam and Eve, the idea of original sin, a tyrannical God, onward to the New Testament, and the "story" of Jesus being a carbon copy of many other stories of many other Sun/Son Gods of the ancient past... so as a result, my pass-time is seeking a story that makes sense to me. Recently a Kabbalistic text stated that the Old Testament is mainly a code of Gemantria and Kabbalistic symbols to be decoded by higher minds - not taken literally. Well, thank Goodness!! The Council of Nicea, in which the Bible was reconstructed to make it easier to rule over the people put the kabash on many things that my nature has wanted to know more about for years.
Somewhere in there, I have learned that the Hebrews came from another place and brought their knowledge with them. The Hebrew alphabet, it was discovered, can be found by shining light through a tube torus that is placed in a tetrahedron, and projected onto a 2D surface... And then came the info on the Tarot - not only do the Major Arcana symbolize the letters of the Hebrew Alphabet: Aleph: The Fool, Beth: The Magician, Gimel: The High Priestess, etc. but the Minor Arcana's four suits respond to the four letters of the Tetragrammaton: Yod Heh Vau Heh - so that the Ace of Wands (Yod), the Ace of Cups (Heh), the Ace of Swords (Vau), and the Ace of Pentacles (Heh Final), are the instruments lying on the table of the Magician, and therefore 2s - 10s are aspects of each part of God (Fire, Water, Air, Earth), as manifested here. The Court Cards are a mini version of Yod (Fire) Heh (Water) Vau (Air) Heh (Earth) - Yod - Kings/ Heh-Queens/ Vau-Knights/ Heh-Pages - and thus the King of Wants is the Firey part of Fire, the King of Cups would be the Firey part of Water, the King of Swords would be the Firey part of Air, and the King of Pentacles, the Firey part of Earth - then the Queen of Wands is the Watery part of Fire, the Queen of Cups is the watery part of water, the Queen of Swords is the Airy part of Water, and the Queen of Pentacles the watery part of earth, etc.
So, the Tarot is a way to begin to know and understand God, and understand how God manifests through our experiences and our lives- through pictures and symbols that go to our way-back time - and it is NOT negative at all. In fact, learning Tarot, according to one Rabbi, is the easiest simplist way to learn the Kabbalah and make practical use of it.
I don't know if I will actually do a Tarot deck now. I am quite satisfied with the Universal Waite. I would not want to take on the weighty task of getting all those symbols right when Pamela Coleman Smith did such a good job of it already.