Drawing #79, God Please Help Me, May 15, 2012
In the throws of actions I would prefer not to take, I have to stop and ask God to intervene. I can't stop myself. I am Powerless. I do have some power but not enough - so I have to ask. We were given free will - but God loves us so much that He will let us starve to death. What does that mean? To me it means that this place - this life - is not about recreation, it is about Spiritual Growth - Free Will is both a gift and a curse but when I become so tired of the pain of Free Will - I can surrender it by asking God to help me - Surrender to Win. Unfortunately, this is often not a one-time thing. Certain things get removed right away, but others, I have to ask over and over.
Drawing #80, Perseverance, May 16, 2012
I asked God what I should do about the Worker Coops. There is no movement forward. When I got back from my trip to California, 2 more people quit. Now we are down to 2. Now what? Now, become a Worker Cooperative Incubator... the message is - the Big Horn Sheep has special feet to be able to grip the sharp rocks that are his home. He thrives in a difficult and arduous climate and terrain - and so can I.
Drawing #81, Sexualized Trauma = Pornography, May 18, 2012
Why do girls get in to the sex business? Simply it seems to me that when we are little, the violence or desolation of our parental upbringing makes us sexualize the trauma - the demon enters - and we seek love through sexual validation - which becomes pornography. Over the years it becomes kinkier and kinkier - but what it really is is an injured little girl seeking affection from her father.
Drawing #82, Waxing Gibbous, May 17, 2012
Waxing Gibbous - I did this drawing after having a long talk with my sister about the Mayan Calendar and about how the way that the current system got put in place was first by replacing our natural calendar. It really made sense to me to think that our original calendar was 13 months because there are 13 moons in a year. Rather than follow the Mayan Calendar, which is much too complicated for my simple mind, I have instead begun to pay attention to the Moon - and to try to be mindful of the schedule of the moon - in other words - to try to start projects at the new moon. To fast on the full moon and to finish projects during the waning moon. This is a subtle, but powerful way to reject the current system.
Drawing #84, Initial Motivation, May 23, 2012
Human Power (Money, Family, Conformity, Sex, Security) does not provide Initial Motivation for many people to live rightly - that Motivation must come from God.
Have you ever experienced this tragedy - trying to get someone to stop drinking or using or being in their horrible relationship? Have you ever watched your friend or loved one walk back into the bad situation again and again?
Have you begged, pleaded, threatened - tried to leave your friend?
The only solution I have found, is prayer with the guiding principle: Live and Let Live - mind my own business.
As crazy as this may sound, it is actually selfish of me to demand that someone adhere to my way of life even if I think I know what is best for them and even if I can get other people to agree with me - in fact - I don't know what is best for anyone.
Contrary to what seems to be right, being in the midst of self-destruction might be exactly what someone needs to reach down deep within themselves and surrender - Surrender To Win.
Have you ever experienced this tragedy - trying to get someone to stop drinking or using or being in their horrible relationship? Have you ever watched your friend or loved one walk back into the bad situation again and again?
Have you begged, pleaded, threatened - tried to leave your friend?
The only solution I have found, is prayer with the guiding principle: Live and Let Live - mind my own business.
As crazy as this may sound, it is actually selfish of me to demand that someone adhere to my way of life even if I think I know what is best for them and even if I can get other people to agree with me - in fact - I don't know what is best for anyone.
Contrary to what seems to be right, being in the midst of self-destruction might be exactly what someone needs to reach down deep within themselves and surrender - Surrender To Win.
Drawing #85, Empathy, May 25, 2012
My friend is in pain. His heart is bleeding. I can see his heart bleeding and I know what caused the pain and I know what a solution is - but the solution that worked for me may not be the solution for him, so as his friend, I am just supposed to see his pain and pray to God to care for him - I float above the situation on my magic carpet because I have been there before and I have perspective - my friend is barefoot because he treats himself like he does not deserve shoes.