I am stuck. I have not really been able to create anything much since the last Sigil I did for myself ...https://steemit.com/esoteric/@in2itiveart/sigil-s-soul-mirror-talisman-for-the-healing-after-a-big-fight-part-5 (really part 6)
I have not had Artist's Block since 1989, this bad. I started to get it in 2015, and that's when I decided to listen to Mark Passio's podcasts - I was blocked and I needed new information.
When I tried to use that subject matter, it was too dark to dwell on creatively - I did https://steemit.com/comics/@in2itiveart/introducing-the-adventures-of-azotha and I did https://steemit.com/art/@in2itiveart/cathy-o-brien-mk-ultra-and-monarch-programming and a series on Satanic Ritual Abuse - and I could not delve into it creatively because it brought me down. So then I found Sigils and I tried to do them for people - and no one wanted them much - I did them for free and gave them away, but now I have run out of people to do them for.
I thought I had cured it with Intuitive Painting... but I got tired of all of it. Mainly I am tired of not selling my work and not having an audience - not having people who give a shit. It's kind of pathetic actually that I require people to like my work in order for me to do it.
It worked for a long time to post artwork on Steemit - but now, for some reason, no one stops to say much more than "nice!".
Am I that shallow? That I must get other people's approva,l to be creative?
This Sigil, of course, worked, and me and BFF are back and stronger than ever, because I learned what I needed to learn and have put some things in place.
But I am still not on a roll with making art right now. I did a few more paintings after that...
I did The Emporer - Tarot Card and now I know who the Hierophant is, but I have not done the drawing yet.
https://steemit.com/esoteric/@in2itiveart/vortex-math-tarot
I had some life-changing events take place in the interim - I had a bad mole show up on my chest and I did this Sigil:
https://steemit.com/tribevibes/@in2itiveart/sigil-for-getting-rid-of-a-bad-mole
And then I did the Master Cleanse and then I went vegan again, and I am on my 10th day of being vegan - I got through Christmas dinner and am still vegan... whew!
But, I am stuck on what the heck to do - I have been copying some Alchemical Drawings searching for inspiration there...
We'll see.